Meeting Ananda Mayi Ma

I never met Ananda Mayi Ma when she was present in her body. A psychic person I met told me that I would met a female indian guru by the name of something like Mayi. At that time I could not really believe what I heard. I felt that I didn't need one more guru. I thought that Ramana and life took care of me. Further I could not figure out who this guru could be. I felt that Shantimayi did not fit the description I got from the medium.

Later when I stayed in Rishikesh (February 2009) Raaj and I spoke about taking a tour to Hardwar and then visit Anananda Mayi Ma's samadhi among other things. I felt a pull to go there. When we arrived at her ashram I sat down in the big hall and meditated. When I meditate I just receive what happens and this time I first felt Anananda Mayi Ma's love and presence. Then her love took over completely, there was a meeting between us and I heard her voice in my heart saying "We are one" and tears fell over my cheeks. Since then she has stayed within me and is present in everything.

Ramana is still with me as before, I only feel doubly blessed.

I experience more and more how different this life and journey is for everyone I meet. Each and everyone have their own unique meetings with their teachers and it is easy to get stuck in what seems true and overwhelming for me and think that this is the only right thing for everyone. I can see how this judgmental and disrespectful attitude is leaving my system. I also appreciate the depth in that we are all taken care of in a most lovingly manner and this happens in a unique and personal way. I can now see with gratitude how my friends are taken care of in a way that previously would compete with my own ideas about how things should be. My life feels bigger, more relaxed, and freedom is even more deep and precious when we all share it in our different ways. Who am I to judge? There is only one - the Beloved.